Deep In Thought

     Sometimes I get in a mood that I can't explain for the life of me.  It's times like this that I really need those that I feel closest to for comfort. It's when day to day events that make me think about some of the choices that I've made in life, especially choices that sat me back helping others move forward, seem to be the epitome of my current situation. I always ask myself why is it that the things that I want most in life, and more importantly the thinks that I NEED, seem so far out of reach. I guess it's an age old question that for some of us will never be answered. I love life, but sometimes you kinda wonder if it's really worth living. No I'm not at all suicidal, just questioning the aspects of existing in a world so full of sadness and misfortune. I think I am blessed to be who I am. There are those that are worse off that I am. Then you have those whom have lives far more fulfilling and privileged than mine, and complain about how much they hate it. I mean when is enough enough. No I don't need diamonds, fast cars, nor do I need all the things that turn heads and draw attention. All I need is enough to stand on my own two feet. The bare necessities in life that allows one to be free from depending on others. Love really don't pay the bills, and it sure as hell don't fill your stomach. But it can give you a reason to move forward and keep trying. That's why I continue to love me, push myself, and not let simple worldly things get in the way of where I need to be. I Love Me... Even if no one else does.

Tray